I know I am but what am I!?!?!

What a beautiful day it was today. Sun is shining. It's warm out. I got myself ready today and happily drove to my therapy appointment. Had the windows down and was singing along to some Daughtry. I love it when the first signs of Spring start to shine through.

I march my happy ass into the office just waiting to see this visits dose of crazy in the waiting room. You really never know what is going to happen. From the lady who came tearing through the waiting room screaming she was DONE with therapy because the therapist was taking notes... to the mother and daughter screaming at each other because mom refused to get the child's damn Justin Bieber stuff out of the car... to the man with the one eye who smells like cheese. Yes... my people. If you ever want to feel better about yourself make a therapy appointment. If you don't actually want therapy go sign in, sit in the waiting room, and just wait for them to call your name. When they do hand them the money for the missed appointment fee and walk your special self back to your car. You'll drive home with a sense of peace, superiority, and normalcy.

One thing my therapist really wanted me to do is find something I enjoy and do it. For no other reason than I want to. So I joined Spiritus Paranormal Investigations. Makes a lot of sense... go to therapy to feel normal and look for the paranormal in the process. Now I have been interested in the paranormal since we bought our house and I realized we shared it with a couple of "body challenged" people. Since then I started looking for answers. I started watching a show called Ghost Hunters and really felt like out of all the shows on TV these people were legit. They had an online message board so I signed up and started looking around. I shared some of what I had been through and ended up in contact with Don. Don is a co-founder of Spiritus. During our conversation in therapy today she asked me why I was interested in the paranormal and I explained to her we had ghosts in our house, I've been helped by Spiritus and I wanted to give back to others who may be scared or unsure.

She asked me what I've seen and I told her about the girl, man, and shadow. She was very serious and then asked if I hear voices. That's when I knew things were about to go downhill. Now... the answer to that question is yes. I do hear the ghosts on occasion. I paused and said the children and I have heard things from time to time. She then asked if anybody else in my family history has heard voices. Before I could answer she asked me again to tell her about the "hallucinations" I've been having. I tried to explain to her that I'm not hearing voices and having hallucinations when she asked me if anybody in my family has ever been diagnosed with Schizophrenia. I told her no and tried again to explain that the paranormal and mental illness are not the same. That's when she asked me about the "message board" I met Don on. She was very curious to know how I think he contacted me on a Ouija board. At this point I had a really hard time keeping a straight face and considered just plain fucking with her. Decided I probably shouldn't play games with the chick who can have me committed. I was trying to tell her what an online message board was when she smiled and said we were out of time and we would continue next week and asked me to please make an appointment. Which is funny because I only go every other week....